So today is the ever exciting office Christmas party. Everyone is in such a tizz that I am not sporting any red, festive, holiday wear. I didn’t realize that we were required to wear red today, besides I seriously don’t own anything that is red. I like to stick with my calm colour palette of blue, grey and black. They did indicate that I always looked nice, but just wished I had more colour in the wardrobe. I secretly wished they stopped wearing sweaters with cats on them.
I am pretty upset today. And no, it has nothing to do with my lack of crimson attire. I recently learned, all too well, the unfairness of being judged for the group’s actions and not individual decisions.
Not too long ago, I ended up in a group that made what I thought was a lame decision. I didn’t voice my concerns, and to avoid looking stupid and upsetting people, I went along with the group, despite my displeasure. I am now feeling the consequences of my personal decision. Both the affected parties as well as myself know I am better than this, and under normal circumstances would have not acted the way I did. But, sadly, I am still am lumped in with the group.
So, exactly should my loyalty start and stop?
Was it my responsibility to voice my displeasure, even though that would have been awkward, and possibly embarrassing?
Should I not care what other people think of me, and stand behind my stupid decision?
Should I be penalized for one stupid mistake, despite a plethora of good decisions?
So today I am mad at the group for making such a selfish and boneheaded decision, I am frustrated with the affected parties lumping me in the group, despite acknowledging they know why I made the choice I did, but mostly mad at myself for going along with the group and not making a stand when I had the chance.
Best laid plans….
At least it is Friday.
As Always,
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