Just When I Thought Things Were Different

So congratulate me, I got married. But if you missed the wedding, don’t feel bad, I missed it too.

This morning I opened my e-mail inbox to only see a message waiting to be read with the subject: Congratulations Denise and Mr. X! I opened the message and read on.

“On this your most special of days, we want to wish you continued love and happiness as you begin your life together.”

Congratulations!

“Some Dumb Wedding Website”

I wracked my brain for a while trying to think of why some website thought I was getting married today, and when I had even visited a website regarding weddings. That’s when it all came back to me.

Too many years ago, when I was still in high school, a friend and I entered an online contest to win a trip somewhere. In order to enter the contest, we had to register at on this wedding website. Laughing as made up our wedding dates, I chose a date ten years into the future, knowing for sure I would be married by that date; after all, it would be 2008!

Somehow, that joke backfired, and on top of it, we never did win the trip.

But maybe today wasn’t the day to get that e-mail.

I looked around church on Sunday and realized just how much it is a wasteland. Seriously, no exaggeration, I think the average age of the ward on Sunday was 22. I watched as 18-year-old girls nosily flirted with people much too old for them during Sacrament Meeting, as well as Sunday School, and then listened as the same girls discussed their various conquests during Relief Society.

Just my luck as well, due to logistics, poor planning and just all round back luck, we are no longer attending the mid-singles conference this weekend. And all of this just after I had finally registered and finally wrapped my head around the idea of going, but I will be spending my weekend dog sitting.

I am trying not to let all of this get me down, but it is hard. It seems just as true today, as the first day I heard it, “The loneliness is palpable.”

Sorry for the Debbie Downer post. For the most part things are going well in my life. I was able to get quite a few errands taken care of yesterday, and soon will be the proud owner of a passport.

Just hoping to get out of my head for a while.

Trying the best I can.

As Always,