First Step is Admittance

I have a problem. Really I do. I need to go to Flirtaholics anonymous.

1. I will not wink at people I don't like

2. I will not call people honey, baby, darling, sweetie, sugar...no matter what or how long I have know them

Or at least I will try to

I said, "No Comment!"

Oh my good heavens! I think I am going to be on TV writing this. Hi Everyone! The people from CTV are at the airport to get a comment from the Lethbridge MP about the upcomming election. Isn't Lethbridge so Metropolitan!

Who are you, and where are you taking me?

I think I totally have alzheimer's . Seriously. How come I can't remember a thing I did this weekend. I mean, okay, there are little bits here and there that I can remember, but most of them happened on Sunday night. Honestly. Maybe the weekend wasn't that good. Maybe it was so much fun, that my brain could only take a maximum funness. I don't know. 24, and already acting like I am 74. Sad.

"Tu que estas en alto cielo, hechame tu bendicion"

And then there were four. Yup, I think I just won 727 Survivor! But sadly I don't get a million dollars for it.

Now because Rebecca left us, and Tat is getting married, and Jodi and Dana are leaving. It is soon only Denise and Three Ashley(ee)s at the 727. What happened!?!?!

When I first moved into this house (with a lot of apprehension) I never imagined I would be here that long. And now look a year and a half later.

I just feel like everyone has a future but me.( Wow! Stop being a drama queen!) I am 24 and way past my prime.( Luckily, I only look 14.)

Two broken mirrors and fourteen years bad luck still to go. (Well more like 13.25 years...so things are looking up.)

Maybe There's Better Me, Waiting For a Better You

Scandal of all scandals. I guess it really isn't a scandal. Just some sad events.

Pepper told Heron who told Smith that "Smith is a wonderful, smart, talented, funny girl....but..."

Ashley now just gets to be "good friends" with Pepper.

We all feel horrible because they seemed to be going somewhere. They had so much fun at Preference. Preference! I blame that! See what it does to people! #$%# you Preference!

Oh well, now it looks like we are back to the middle of nowhere.

"It's always fun when you go with a good friend!"

Well, the night dreams are made of, turned out to be a nightmare for some of us.

Preference was a definately thumbs sideways.

Preference Pros:

• Jesse did say yes (when he could have said no)
• All the girls looked way hot!
• We did get to know some of the boys better with our game
• We got to eat cheesecake
• Jesse's car is nicer than mine
• The gym was decorated beautifully
• The band was awesome!
• Sister Richards loves me
• My roommates had fun with their dates
• Denise and Three Ashley(ee)s got to be together
• I got a hug at the end
• I get to retire from this nonsense!

Preference Cons:

• I wasn't really ready when everyone came over
• Jesse didn't bring me any flowers
• Jesse didn't wear a suit (but I guess not really a con, because he still looked okay)
• Jesse didn't eat any cheesecake
• I didn't want to learn the orgins of the Tagalog langauge
• X-boxes aren't really my thing.
• Paintball is not a cool subject
• Constant chatter gets anoying
• "We're having fun" doesn't mean we are having fun
• None of this will get any of us anywhere

C'est La Vie! It's Over. Hopefully now Jesse will get engaged out of this deal.

I Would Prefer Not to Talk About It

Okay. It is over. We all made it through alive! Can you believe it!?! After 2 weeks of planning, and preparing and being somewhat paranoid over it, Preference is over. Just like that!

I am too tired to give you the minute by minute plays. But I promise I will.

Kiss Me With Your Cherry Lipstick, Never Wash You Off My Face

Denise, your holiday wish is to Get a Kiss Under the Mistletoe

A fun flirt like you certainly doesn't rest on your laurels over the holidays. In fact, a go-getter like you usually cranks things up a notch. Not one to miss any social event of the season, you take advantage of the fact that everyone's gathering round to eat, drink, and be merry.Whether you've got a long-time sweetie you want to meet under the mistletoe or are still looking for that special cutie to catch under the love branch, you know that keeping romance alive is what makes everything, especially the holidays, a little better. Pucker up!

Who knew that an online test could be so correct!

Deep Breath In, Deep Breath Out

I can't breathe! I can't breathe! This isn't happening. Why am I doing this again?

We only have one day until the big night. For some unknown reason we have built this up in our heads, and I feel we will be emensly disapointed with any results that aren't magical. What am I going to talk about after Preference. It takes up 90% of my thought and 80% of my conversations. I can't do this.

Please let eveything be okay. Please let the Magic 8 Ball be true. My nerves can't take this anymore.

Escape is at Hand

The answer was yes. He did finally answer me. I feel bad that my roommates harrassed him to answer. Oh well Now we just have to let it all go and see what happens. Hopefully all goes well, or at least good enough.

Nerves Hit The Surface

Why is Preference such a gong show. Every year! Every year! I am retiring this year. I say go out on top. Flick is now going with Pratt, which is good for me, I know Kurtis. But I don't want to be selfish. I am worried because we have nothing planned. And well, I don't want to end up just saying "What do you want to do, what do you want to do?"

No answer yet. But suposedly today is the day. Boo. I don't want to go anymore. I am tired of waiting. I am tired of not caring. I am tired of keeping my room clean.

I hate Preference, I hate Preference, I hate Preference.

Okay. Calm down. Love you all. Good Luck......"it's getting better all the time, it can't get no worse."

Oh My Good Heavens! Oh My Good Heavens!

Tat and Chandler are engaged! Can you believe it! (insert horn blowing "woot woot") February 17, 2006! ("woot,woot,woot")

Oh yes, and still no reponse to preference. Oh well, maybe I won't have to go.

Ronald McDonald and Mayor McCheese Have Yet to Respond

Don't you just hate Preference time? Honestly I do. It has got to be one of the worst times of the year, and there is so much peer pressure to ask someone. Even if there is no one you want to ask.

So I did it again. I asked Jesse Richards to Preference. I wrote him a card with saying basically, will you go to Preference with me in Tagalog. I know, not that creative, but I don't care anymore.

"gumawa ka hindi mapoot ito kailan a batang babae hingi a lalaki dahil sa Preference nina lituhin , biruin at pagbutas-butasin? ako ginawa hindi magkulang sa humingi ka di a magusot paraan. Puede ka lumakad dahil sa Preference?"

Thomas S. Monson Has Never Given A Better Talk

Tonight Flick, Jodi and me went to the CES broadcast.

I invented the funniest game. It is called "Get Jesse Richards to Hold Your Hand" I have never had so much fun at a fireside.

Jesse sat down next to me and I figured I would torment him the whole time. I started by casually placing my hand on my left knee....the international sign for hand holding. (As well know as the international sign for choking, or so I thought.) Jesse must have noticed, because he kept figeting and breathing funny. I just laughed to myself.
Slowly I moved my hand down further on my leg. In perfect holding position. After keeping it there with no results only heavy breathing and figiting. I placed my hand lightly on his leg. (Why wasn't this working yet?) Poor Jesse. His leg started shaking. I think he was beside himself on what to do.

The fireside ended, with no hand holding results. But it is still the best time I have ever had with Thomas S. Monson. (I read his talk later on, I realized that I didn't learn anything from it!)

No One Will Know, Us and the Moonlight

Oh my good heavens! Have you ever just had the most wonderful dream. Where you finally kissed the boy you have always dreamed about. Everything seems so perfect and real. You wake up in such a wonderful mood, it is almost as if it were real.

Needless to say, "WELCOME TO MY REALITY!"

Now I just can't get my mind off this guy. It is so crazy. If you would have asked me two weeks ago what I thought about him, I would have been totally indifferent. But things really have changed. And the sad part is that everyone has noticed these changed feelings. I am so very subtle. Well, no need to get all crazy about this. Nothing happened, nothing will happen...ever.

"If Only"--Goldfinger

If only I wasn't so fine******lyrics changed to suit me better
If only you weren't so blind******
I'd find a way to make you stay
Then maybe I'd see you

If I woke up with all these things
Would it even change your feelings?
None of that is even me
But for now i'll have to wait another week
To see your face and all I want to say is
That I really miss you

I Really Like the Bathroom at the Lethbridge Airport.

Most of the time, airport bathrooms are really gross, and there is usually a long line for them because eveyone drank too much on the flight and now has to pee.

(I love that everyone on the flight will always take the free drink, even if you aren't thirsty. Air Canada will give you the whole can of whatever, some people don't)

The Lethbridge Airport is not that busy, and so the bathroom is usually quiet, and empty. Nothing worse than listening to others in the bathroom. Plus they have real twist on, twist off handles at the sink. Always a bonus!